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era pior pra nós dois
01:48
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epílogo
03:40
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pelo jeito dessa vez eu fui longe demais
você não vai voltar
e as memórias que fizemos, vou ter que deixar pra trás
nada vai se concretizar
todas ilusões, promessas
mil segredos, mil desejos
tudo que eu sonhei que a gente
um dia ia construir, apodreceu, caiu das minhas mãos
pelo jeito a nossa história não vai ser nada no final
eu vou te ver feliz sem mim
é difícil aprender que a sua ausência agora é normal
eu nunca quis que fosse assim
ter coragem pra entender
que as minhas chances já se foram
o que você disse foi tão breve mas me machucou
eu acho que é isso que eu mereço no final
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mais perto de mim
02:03
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todos seus amigos me odeiam, mas eles não me vêem como você vê
eu queria ter tido a ciência de que eu não fui moldado pra te conhecer
tudo que a gente fez, agora são histórias sobre alguém ruim
todas vezes que nos entregamos, achei que viramos o nosso jardim
você não sabe mas a minha mãe me ouviu chorando por você incontáveis vezes
e eu acredito que talvez seu pai ouviu você falando de mim por meses
eu queria te biografar, mas você não me deixou descobrir o fim
e eu queria muito me matar depois que eu entendi que eu sou ruim
todas as histórias que eu conto sobre você
me fazem questionar se eu realmente importei
porque agora eu descobri que você tá se divertindo
e vadiando por aí com pessoas que eu nunca vi
talvez seja culpa minha por coçar a cicatriz
mas a dor de ter você é algo que eu sempre quis
e agora que o meu corpo apodreceu e minha mente se foi,
você contesta que nunca me conheceu
eu queria te ver
com cortes no braços
pra sentir você
mais perto de mim
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for the first time, for the first time
for the first time, for the first time
for the first time, for the first time
for the first time, for the first time
i open
the window
it's cold
the wind blows
my hair
my ankles
i fall back
i hit my head
i feel the dread
it's all the same
there's no end
i feel fucking bent
you're long gone
this goes on
and on and on
and on and on
and on...
you're what kept me alive when
i thought the memories would make me disappear
the whispers would make me give in to the fear
the thought of you leaving made me stay for a while more
than i wanted to be
the things that we went through were all that i had
to keep in my heart just to make sure i left
my life still kept on my hands
then i felt dead for the first time
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5. |
self portrait in hell
00:58
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6. |
monday 51
02:41
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it's as heavy as a shockwave
it's as blinding as a thunderstorm
but when i get there, i'm telling you
i'll have a million ways to get warm
it's as wonderful as neverland
it's as haunting as a demon's stare
but when i get there, i'm telling you
there's nothing else that would even compare
and from minute to minute, step by step
i can hear the chains clinging and my bones begin to crack
i'm like a polar bear yearning to kill
there's not a lot do but to get ill
and if you hear the scream on the hill
there's not a lot do but to stand still
you're as painful as a stabwound
i'm as tired i've always been
but if we get there, i'm telling you
it will be better than whatever i've ever seen
i don't get it, why d'you want me to grow?
we're the stars of such a boring show
but if we get there, i'm telling you
they will all be crying in the front row
and from minute to minute, step by step
i can hear my phone ringing and i'm ready to cut the crap
from a thousand miles i can hear you groan
i can be sorry when you're ready to come back home
i know i can't convince you not to hang up the phone
but please just don't leave me alone
please just dont leave me alone
please just dont leave me alone
please just dont leave me alone
please just dont leave me alone
(worst of all, it's been making me sick. i've been spitting blood and i don't feel right inside. i need to get this shit out of my sistem before i wind up dead.)
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7. |
alaska
02:52
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você não sabe
mas eu comecei a beber
e agora eu sinto que
eu finalmente aprendi a crescer
mas de que importa onde eu nasci
se eu continuo sem sorrir?
porque aqui eu escolhi
e eu não consigo sair
você não sabe
mas eu comecei a chorar
agora eu tenho cortes
quem vê acha que eu não vou durar
não tem ninguém que eu conheci
que entenda quem eu sou
e se eu conseguir viver
eu não sei pra onde eu vou
tentei te esperar
até o sol nascer
me leva pra onde vai
pois meu lar é você
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9. |
lumps
02:04
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if we were flowers
the grass would be burning
and we would be ashes
by the end of the month
as the planet keeps turning
we're left to sail on our own
this world is a scam
just like where we're from
is there something you forgot to say?
i'll never hear it anyway.
at this point in time there's nothing
nothing left in me
nothing to fix, nothing to see
nothing to cry, nothing to be
my hands were always tied and i was left there to watch
you leaving me, to deal with your fleeting misery
everything i say is to hide the fact that i'm goddamn small
and the things i do will fade away
and the people i love don't love me at all
i know what i did and i know how you feel
and i know for a fact that i'm here and i'm real
and i want you to know that i've turned us into goddamn lumps
but i'll be ashes by the end of the month.
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10. |
recoil
00:57
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simon strider Brazil
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